dying.

the following is how my night went last night
1:00 am got in bed
3:14 am opened my eyes because i felt like my legs were bathing in graham cracker crumbs and my stomach hurt
3:24 am got out of bed, proceeded to a community bathroom presumably to throw up
3:30 am got a little bit different of a suprise
3:35 am sat on the floor, facing the toilet, mentally noting the stains and hairs mingling on the toilet seat i was about to put my face in
3:40 am whined the word "mommy"
3:41 am my first wish for death of the night
4:00 am fell asleep on my arm of the side of the toilet, whining
4:15 am looked at my watch, wished that my death was quicker than an hour, more whining
4:44 am thought maybe the worst was over, so went back to bed, whining still
5:47 am woke up again, went back to my special toilet (first stall)
5:52 am went back to the room, got my pillow, blanket, and water bottle and laid on the floor outside the bathroom
7:40 am called zach to take me to the nurse
7:46 am nevermind to zach, thought i was going to throw up in the dorm
7:51 am called zach back, went to the nurse
8:00 am threw up in the nurses office, zach held my hair and gave me tissues. puke came out my nose. my second wish for death.
i'm tired so im not gonna finish this but you get the idea. i went to the doctor, got medicine and slept the rest of the day but so far this is the worst experience of college. i always just want to die anticipating puking but as usual.....
I'll be okay