peace

I'm waiting for my bagels to bake. In the mean time I have a smorgasbord of things to talk about.
Yesterday I updated my itunes! Few things make me as happy as new music :)

I miss having a fully equipped kitchen at my disposal more than I can express. I put on my music, throw a towel over my shoulder (sometimes put on my apron), and then get to work making a hot mess in the kitchen. I wouldn't consider myself an artist in any art mediums, but baking is one way I can make something that people actually enjoy strictly for pleasure. Maybe that's what art is anyway.

I realized something big the other day and I've been thinking about it a lot.
I'm single. And I like it. It doesn't feel like a temporary status until I find someone to spend the rest of my life with. It feels like fun, and doing what I want. It feels like hanging out with fun people that I want to hang out with. Maybe its selfish, but I don't have to think about anyone else on that level. Its part of being young. There's blessings in dating and marriage and stuff, but I'm enjoying the promise of the unknown purely at my own disposal. I always thought I'd get married in college somewhere along the way, but now that freaks me out. There is a world out there I want to discover by myself a little I think. I'm having a blast right now regardless of how it turns out.

I'm about to make a bold statement.
The kind of thing that I'm afraid to make a defining decision about because it either jinxes it or I change my mind and then everyone's like "I thought you said..." and then whatever it was that I said.
But, here I go.

2010 has been the best year for me. Like ever.
And not necessarily circumstantially.
A lot's happened, a lot has changed. And I'll never be the same.
Spiritually I got better- and worse- and then better still again, then back to worse... and that's taken me a long way.
That's actually what's helped the most with my enjoying life regardless of what is going on.
Also, the fact that I've found things that I love in everything.
My bagels are delicious by the way.

I'm 85 percent sure I'm getting a tattoo. We'll see.
Good night beautiful world.