change

I have not done any homework of consequence- the kind where I actually am aware of what I am doing- since last Thursday.
I have a fire lit under me, a fire that tells me this will all be for nothing if I continue to sit here and wallow.
But here I sit.
Overwhelmed and full of sorrow.
Life keeps playing tricks. My emotions don't help. Priorities get skewed when my motivation lags. Motivation falls to the depths because my priorities are skewed.
Things that used to matter can't matter anymore because they're gone, altered, or unknown.
And all I can find is that I get lost in the mess of changes, decisions, days gone by, and a future that likes to remind me that all I know is that I don't know anything.
I feel alone, unhappy with my behavior for the duration of time that I've been in this pit, and yet all that I can find to cry about is that I do not know how to find the pH of .4 Molar HCO3.