I'm trying to remember that things always seem bad at first, but then they get better as time goes on and you see that you still breathe in and out, you still laugh, you still enjoy things. Its the end of the semester. I have this awesome video project where I know like 500 people that could do better on it than I can, it scares me like none other because I have no idea what I'm doing and yet still I love it. I have my all-time favorite band's concert tomorrow, I have my birthday, still have the best friends that anyone could ever ask for, and Christmas just around the corner.
And yet...
and yet I wonder.
I look for better things.
I ache for what I don't have.
Never settling for what's good in front of me.
I hate this part of myself sometimes.
I love you.
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